out of the loop

hi. so i was just reading my emails, when i looked to the top of the page and saw an ad that read "we take a proven, scientific approach to finding your ideal partner. turn to the experts...." and at that point i threw up on my computer screen and went for coffee to let it dry. the science of love. do i really need to comment on why that bothers me? okay, for now i'm not going to, but here's something else on my mind....

i am always, always bothered by things that controvert the senses, the natural world, spiritual "truths." being bothered doesn't necessarily mean that i take a negative approach to new ideas; instead, i'm upset inwardly in a way that generally produces one of two main results. first, i might know for sure that what i have experienced is contrary to what i feel is right. second option - that i can challenge what i've always held to be true because of what i am experiencing that is different than what i've known.

if G-d is everything and allows all things to happen, who am i to try to figure out if something is good or bad? in the broad scope, do i know for sure it's wrong for someone to commit what we've determined to be a crime if the end result from that crime being commmitted is that something is discovered because of it that ends another act that is "worse" than that crime in our minds? wow, sorry for that sentence. okay, donnie darko for instance - he was "told" to burn down a dude's house, but through that the fire crews putting out the blaze found he was running a child porn ring. arson justified, or still wrong no matter what the result? the point is, it doesn't matter if we determine through our own system of justice whether something is wrong; there is a higher court that knows more and works more mysteriously through us than any of our minds can imagine. i'm not saying i think we should end all manner of punishment, but sometimes when we decide to point an accusing finger at someone who's done something "unheard of", perhaps we should consider whether they had a choice.