guess i've wondered about this before....

i found this just after i posted that last blog entry. something i wrote january 9, 2004 that captures the same question's essence.


a man so obsessed by the paranoia of God’s “plan” for his life that he decides against everything he originally had set out to accomplish. if he had wanted children, he had none. if he had a good source of income, he chucked it and lived on the street. he sold his house and car and gave the money away – well, at least he threw it into the street one night and never looked back to see what happened to it. no wife, stopped talking with his family. threw away his wardrobe along with his friends. stopped doing every hobby he enjoyed, even taking up the exact opposite of some. craps instead of yahtzee. stealing hubcaps instead of assembling plastic models.

in the end, he was destitute living among the destitute. his acquaintances were the fiends of the street. his home, wherever he needed to be. his purpose, to run at the slightest hint of unoriginality.

and God smiled, because the man had given up all earthly possessions to follow Him.